Sunday, September 30, 2007

But God

From June '07

He asks me to do things I would not do. I say, "But GOD, why?, or But God, I can't or But God, I don't understand, or But God it hurts to be in this or that situation." He uses me as I am and I say, "But God, I am not that" so today I searched "but God".

This is in bible order, not mine.

Genesis 31:7 but God did not allow him to hurt me.
Genesis 45:8 So now it was not you who sent me here, but God;
Genesis 48:21 but God will be with you
Genesis 50:20 but God meant it for good
Genesis 50:24 But God will surely visit you
Exodus 13:18 But God led the people around by way of the wilderness
Job 5:15 But God saves [the fatherless] from the sword of their mouth,
Job 34:5 but God has taken away my right;
Psalm 49:15 But God will redeem me
Psalm 64:7 But God will shoot an unexpected arrow at them
Psalm 68:21 But God will shatter the heads of His enemies
Psalm 73:26 but God is the Rock and firm Strength of my heart and my Portion forever.
Psalm 75:7 But God is the Judge! He puts down one and lifts up another.
Psalm 78:52 But [God] led His own people forth like sheep and guided them [with a shepherd's care] like a flock in the wilderness.
Ecclesiastes 3:11 but God alone can satisfy,
Isaiah 17:13 -but [God] will rebuke them
Luke 5:21 Who can forgive sins but God alone?
Luke 16:15 but God knows your hearts.
Acts 2:24 But God raised Him up
Acts 7:9 but God was with him,
Acts 10:28 but God has shown and taught me by words that I should not call any human being common or unhallowed or [ceremonially] unclean.
Romans 5:8 But God shows and clearly proves His love for us by the fact that while we were still sinners, Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One) died for us.
1 Corinthians 3:6 but God all the while was making it grow and He gave the increase.
1 Corinthians 7:15 But God has called us to peace.
1 Corinthians 10:13 But God is faithful [to His Word and to His compassionate nature], and He [can be trusted]
1 Corinthians 15:38 But God gives to it the body that He plans and sees fit
2 Corinthians 7:6 But God, Who comforts and encourages and refreshes and cheers the depressed and the sinking,
Ephesians 2:4 But God--so rich is He in His mercy! Because of and in order to satisfy the great and wonderful and intense love with which He loved us
Philippians 2:27 But God had compassion on him
1 Thessalonians 4:8 but God, Whose very Spirit that He gives to you is holy (chaste, pure).

Friday, September 28, 2007

River Walk 3/11/07

I went to church today. On the way home this happened.

"STOP here!" I heard it in the middle of a curve. Not just any curve but the second of two tight curves, this one with a train track over it, blocking the view of on coming traffic. And two, count em', two, no parking signs. I went past.

Go Back! I hear three times, each louder so I hit the next left and turned around, went though the curve and turned around again so I was back where I needed to be to pull over.

To NOT park I left the keys in the car and it running. I walked back toward the river and start looking for what I am supposed to see. First there is a dam near, a sound of comfort and a place of meaning to me. I feel myself relax. I see it has a place to sit on it. I see the blue sky, the clouds are all behind me.

Then there is the river. It's down a tall bank from where I am. At the base is a bare place from people fishing. A small stream feeds in on the north over the gravel bank. Someone has put small block steps in but they are icy and snow covered.

I am asking why I am here. I know "to go down to the river" is the answer. I explain about dress up shoes and ice and down hill and dresses and still get, "I will not let you fall, go down to the river."

I move about half way down and slip a little. I see a nice stump with a few leaves hiding it. I lift the leaves to move the snow off and sit there. I try to get comfortable and easy in spirit but I can't. The stump is too short, I am too tall, I'm cocked at the back. I look at the ice on the steps and at the spot by the river and I get up and start the rest of the way down.

I get to the nice spot and look around again. The sun is shining and I hear "The sun is to remind you of me. When you see clouds, the sun is still there. I am always here. " I hear a breeze in the leaves and then it fluttered through my hair and over my skin. I hear, "The wind is to remind you of me. You can not see me but I am always here."

I get it and I leak tears of joy that I understand and I just wrote about the river of love awhile ago so I know the river is the love. I hear, "Take off your shoes and step in the river."

Now anyone from the north knows there isn't much colder than a snow fed stream or river and where the two met I was to stand. I mentioned pnumonia, flu, only March, age, you name it I pointed it out and I just keep hearing, "I am here, step in the river".

I took off my shoes but left my socks on. I took a breath, looked up and walked into the river. It was ankle deep right there. The water ran over my feet from the stream and over my toes from the river. I looked at my feet. I knew they were in the water, I could SEE that, I could FEEL that but it felt like I had my feet in the creek at the shallow spot in high summer.

I looked at my feet some more and said, "Thank you, that feels really goodl" It was only cool and refreshing. My feet were not blue, I was not shivering and my teeth were not chattering. Wow.

I stood there until a truck pulled into the place I was parked in front of - right by their no parking sign and then walked out of the river, put on my shoes and went easily up the hill to the car.

He washed my feet.

To remind me I am loved so much that in the winter he would warm the water or maintain the warmth of my feet for me. He takes care of my every need. I am loved. I love the Creator.

For my reaction to that - wow. You had to be there. "I have washed your feet to show you the love I have for you. I am always here."

I got in the car KNOWING what centered was for the first time in a long time. I was completely balanced in my self. All the parts of me were connected in a way that left me feeling whole.

I don't know how to explain that better. I feel scattered a lot. Part of me thinking about one thing, doing another thing, wishing I was doing more or less and not being able to concentrate on what I am doing for all the other thoughts and such but at that time I was completely myself doing nothing but praying for joy and thankfulness for the blessing I feel I had received that day.

I had to take my shoes off in the car, my feet were too hot. Still, I have never heard of a hot flash in just one part of your body or a fever in one part of your body. I took off the wet socks, too.

I was so overcome by this that I drove around wherever traffic and corners took me or I felt I should turn until I was lost over by the new highway 6 south of GR. I finally hit 96 and headed home. I wanted so badly to share the experience with someone.

I stopped by my friends home. He was outside chipping ice of the driveway. I started telling him about it. He looked properly doubtful and I said, "See?"

Then I kicked off my shoes, walked over and stood in his snow. My feet went right to soggy ground. I stood there, walked out the long way through the snow and showed him my feet, not the slightest change. No shivers, no chattering teeth -nothing to show I felt it.

I went in and visited with them until I got it out of my system a little. I was barefoot as we talked and I left the same way.

WOW. I went out to put foot prints in the front yard just for the fun of it!

What a blessed day.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Play Misty for me

In the beginning God spoke and it was so. I can't do that!

I only seek a place to explore the spiritual paths in life and to share the one I walk.

My beliefs are my own. I do not mean to offend. I explore. A Misty View is where I will speak only truth, no matter how strange it may seem. A time warp of experiences that I don't explain, I accept them as truth in my life. You don't need to believe me. I write to remember.




Sunday, September 23, 2007

If I believe:

From May 23, 07
If I believe:
My entire purpose here is to show other humans that the Divine Loving Being is, creates and sees only good lovingly for each of us in this life.

Then to show this to you:
I will share with others how the life I have lived - in all of it's loss, pain, ignorance, hurt to others and selfishness - was blessed to be made good. As I come to see that even the things I have done I was ashamed of and sorry for have been used for good I will share these thoughts.

If I believe:
That the love we are alive in should pass through us to others we touch.

Then to show this to you:
I can only giving love freely to all others brought into my life. I will use what I have to smooth the way for others as it was eased for me by others in my life.

If I believe:
That every one is loved exactly as they are created to be this second. Unique is what it is.

Then to show this to you:
I will continue to unlearn judging myself and others and continue to see the loving spirit of each one I meet or have brought to me. I will act on my belief that the loving thing to do is always the right answer to any situation. No matter who's responsibility it appears to be I must act - if I am aware of it - to the best of my ability to show loving support to the person in need of it regardless of who they are and how they feel about me.

If I believe:
That each bit of life is precious because it is so rare in the cosmos.

Then to show this to you:
I will show I love for life. I will not waste it. I will be thankful for the lives given as food and protection. I love being alive and I love this place and I love the other people, animals and things that live here with me. Death is part of the plan for bodies but spirits don't die.

If I believe:
That these bodies are a gift for us.

Then to show this to you:
I will enjoy my body whatever shape it's in. I will use it to share love with those who need it. I will enjoy being alive - touch, hold hands, and hug with love. I am glad I have the ability to express my joy and love for others fully for awhile longer.

If I believe:
That each of you will live forever blissfully in peace in that place with the Divine Loving Being.

Then to show this to you:
I will live joyfully and show that I do not fear death nor grieve for those that live in the eternal time frame. I will only celebrate being here where I am still needed.

When each of us are lovingly caring for one another, and the planet, in peace there will be a heaven on earth. I can't change the world but I can touch lives around me with love, one person at a time and see that it WILL change.