Give it up.

You get told that - "You're beating your head against a stone wall. Give it up!"

Today the words that came to me were "Give it up."

I don't like giving up when I have started something. There is are situations in my life that I have worked hard at and put a lot of time, money, effort and my very heart into. Some of them ain't goin nowhere. I have to give it up. That made me sad.

Then I realized what I had to do was "give it UP^" I took it in prayer and laid it on the lap of my friend, the Christ. I could tell Him how hard I tried and how disappointed I am that I am not what is needed when I want so to be needed and loved. I told him how I still screw up even when it's love I'm trying to express. I told Him I was sorry I can't do more. I have to give it up.

He took it for me. There is no shame in giving it up to Him. He knows we can't always "fix it" down here. It's not us that opens hearts and eyes and minds, it's Him. All we can do is show others it works in our lives by living what we believe. Their choices are theirs.

I can point them to Him, I can say and show I look to Him, only He can open them to the love that is theirs from Him.

Sometimes I try too hard. I "work at" trying to do what should be easy for me when it's something I love doing. I know that when I am trying to please others here and not the Divine Love I get all tensed up. It hurts when what I do seems not to be enough or appreciated.

Today I have to "give it Up^" and give up trying so hard myself. I have to know I don't need to feel I have failed. I have done what I can, the rest is up to Him.

Silly me, thinking I can change even one heart when I can't even control myself without His guidance. Foolish me, being hurt because I'm not good enough by other humans standards. In His eyes I am enough.

I gotta remember what's important is just to give, show and share love. The rest is "up^" to Him.